Okay so here is another update...

After much much self thought I really want to continue in my art career and I think without the artistic practice and views life is pretty much well nothing to me. The last 5 months have been so hard and stressful and I do not want to continue in that way. I have looked into the health care and I think that  profession is good and I would be interested in that but art will always be my number one interest and enjoyment. So if I ever tire or get bored of art, I will go back and study health care. But for now I have made a decision and art is something I want to study, do and excel in. So from here forth I will try and push forward into that vocation in my life. Let the good times roll.